This post brought to you from the rocking corner.
I am surrounded by empty chocolate wrappers and have worn a dint in the carpet from the rocking.
But man, that rockin’ is great for the abs.
Cradling a glass of Mint Baileys with tons of ice, the air con blowing in my face.
Drying the tears, leaving mascara trails down my face. I look like Alice Cooper.
And I could probably bite the head off a dove right now…….
Today my mind imploded.
Little by little my mind has been cracking since Boo hurt himself.
But today the dam walls broke. His constant running around and putting his WHOLE weight on his BROKEN foot has sent me into a tailspin.
The feeling pain phenomenon was short lived. The bandages continue to be tasty. He is as happy as a pig in shit.
Every mothers dream with a child with a broken bone.
But it leaves me with chills down my spine on this stinking hot summers day.
I have visions of his foot snapping in half. Like a tree weakened by a storm, days, weeks, months later collapsing from the weight of itself with no warning.
I am lashing out at everyone. I am angry at the world. I want to hide in the rocking corner and everyone to leave me the fuck alone.
I want these feelings of inadequacy and guilt to disappear.
And tonight, after Boo is in the land of nod aided by the fabulous painkillers, I will find relief at the bottom of a wine bottle.
And peace will come.
Until tomorrow.
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33 Responses to “This post brought to you from the rocking corner.”
February 2nd, 2008 at 9:17 pm
repeat after me: this too shall pass, this too shall pass. wine is my friend.
Can’t they plaster it for him? at least that would maybe protect it from further damage.
poor little guy.
poor mum!
this is not your fault. if you could make it better, you would. it’s so unfair. i’m sending bottles of cyber wine and boxes of cyber lindt. and hugs. lots of those.
February 2nd, 2008 at 9:35 pm
{{{HUGS}}} Babe. Wish I could pop over and take you shoe shopping.
Not doing much better myself today and I don’t have the same excuse you do!!!
February 2nd, 2008 at 9:37 pm
Oh - words fail me. I can only echo this ,too will pass and pass you the vino. Sorry I can’t imagine how you feel despite the tongue in cheek and humour - I bet your heart is heavy and hurting for Boo..Sometimes it obviously gets too much for you the super mum with the super human Boo. Hugs , and tissues.
February 2nd, 2008 at 9:43 pm
Tracey, Lightening and Trish:
Thanks girls. Will be back to my potty mouthed, pissed off self in no time. Dropped my Super Mum cape off at the drycleaners today *snort*
February 2nd, 2008 at 9:46 pm
It is not your fault and you are doing good enough.
huge huge hugs. You rock and drink and eat chocolate all you like…… until this too passes.
February 2nd, 2008 at 9:58 pm
If it’s any consolation my eldest broke a bone in her foot when she was 11 or 12, we thought it was just sprained and she continued life as normal with just a bit of strapping around foot and ankle. When she was still limping 3 weeks later I asked does it hurt at all and she said yeah a bit so off to the casualty ward for an x-ray. They said it was broken but healing already but they’d put a plaster on it for her in case she knocked it. So on went the plaster, they gave her a pair of crutches. Next day at school the summer swim carnival was announced and SHE WAS FURIOUS, because with a plaster she couldn’t swim. The point is that after three weeks the foot was already healing itself and Boo’s probably will be okay too. Here have some of my chockies……….
February 2nd, 2008 at 10:45 pm
River said it all. And from my sketchy knowledge of orthopaedics the bones of the feet heal very quickly.
*sigh* It seems to be the week for ’self doubt’
The stinking weather doesn’t help.
Dear one, you manage things that would leave other mothers screaming into a cocktail of valium and vodka.
But I’m not going to say to you to stop doubting yourself. It’s the human condition.
Drink yourself to the bottom of that bottle if you have to. But please remember this…
You’re fucking awesome!
February 2nd, 2008 at 10:48 pm
I’m sorry Kelley. I wish things were easier, for both of you.
((hug))
February 3rd, 2008 at 12:00 am
Oh hon, that sucks. I wish things were better.
February 3rd, 2008 at 12:06 am
No words, just thinking of you and sending HUGS. You know how to contact me if you need to vent.
February 3rd, 2008 at 12:10 am
Hugs here too babe.
Remember two things: what breaks will eventually heal, and ….. NEVER EVER drink wine after mint Baileys - I’m thinking you HAVE lost it
February 3rd, 2008 at 12:28 am
Kelley. You go girl. Everyone needs a meltdown from time to time, and saints preserve us you’ve earnt yours!
Items for consideration
#1. Dr Win sent you off without a cast, and without instructions to keep off the foot. Didn’t he say “there’s nothing we can do”? We all need to put faith in Dr Win’s judgement on this one eh?
#2. Everyone I’ve known whose broken something in a foot has just gone on, in a more or less normal kind of way. They’ve all turned out OK. And some of these folk, the more stoic ones didn’t even bother seeing a Dr. So missed out on bandages too. These folk figured a Dr would just tell them, as your Dr Win did - that there was a broken bone, and there was nothing that could be done. Have a nice day.
#3. There are a great deal of wee bones in a foot. One fracture is just not going to be enough to let a foot snap. Even one that is being danced on. DS has not become plasticine boy! He wont snap.
#4. You are a GOOD mummy/mommy. What more could you be doing now? I’ve scratched my head for you on this one, and can’t think of a thing.
One day they’ll invent a chocolate truffle high heel shoe and it shall be named The Kelley in your honour.
JodieOdie
February 3rd, 2008 at 2:51 am
I am sorry hon. I wish there was something I could do to help you and the little guy.
February 3rd, 2008 at 3:19 am
Oh babe, big big hugs to you!
February 3rd, 2008 at 4:42 am
I’m so sorry. I don’t know if everyone has days like that, but I sure do. Not much I can do way over here, but I’m thinking of you.
February 3rd, 2008 at 5:05 am
Hey–there’s always the possibility that Boo’s foot will heal even stronger because he is keeping his it flexible and not losing muscle mass by convalescing instead of getting his jiggy on! Perfectly reasonable scenario, no? I’m choosing to believe this version.
My husband makes an awesome red wine–wish I could send you some…
February 3rd, 2008 at 6:38 am
Oh dear oh dear. Hang in there… wish I could say more. Just hang in there.
And drink more. Moderately.
February 3rd, 2008 at 6:51 am
I thought the same thing about the wine after mint Baileys. Hope you didn’t end the night riding the porcelain taxi!
Every now and then I have a wine sozzled night. And my kids are not as high maintenance as Boo. So enjoy. (Did you make sure you have Panadol for today?)
February 3rd, 2008 at 8:29 am
*hugggggggggggggggg*
Wish I could offer something more constructive.
February 3rd, 2008 at 8:57 am
Smootches sweety
You are a wonderful Mum.
Boo will be fine - somehow they manage to keep on despite the Mumma’s terror.
I hope he had a good night’s sleep and, so, you did too.
xxx
o, and rocking feels really nice sometimes doesn’t it? Sort of understand why they do it :o)
February 3rd, 2008 at 9:54 am
thankyou everyone.
I am feeling much better this morning and ready to dispense death stares, laugh hysterically at the stupid people of the world and regain my potty mouth.
Sending smootches to each and every one of you for your kind comments and suggestions.
And no. I didn’t drink RED wine after Baileys….
Bletch.
But coffee and panadol are my new bestest friends!
February 3rd, 2008 at 10:09 am
Ohhh that rocking corner got a bit over-crowded last night lol !
2 scenarios -
1)Boo is plastered, in traction and confined to a bed 24/7 booooored beyond belief and tellin’ you every other minute.
OR
2) Boo runs around while his foot heals.
Relax (for a nanosecond) and enjoy your panadol today
February 3rd, 2008 at 11:54 am
I’m so glad to hear you’re feeling better. Some days are so hard. Especially when you’re trying to look out for a vulnerable little guy. But he was happy. You make him happy. And that’s the most important thing. I’m glad you have a rocking corner. I might need to designate one of those in my house too.
February 3rd, 2008 at 12:33 pm
Oh, babe. I’m so, so sorry. It’d make me squeamish, that is for certain.
Hang in.
February 3rd, 2008 at 12:46 pm
Glad you are feeling better…… and you know what else is good for hangovers besides panadol and coffee? Memes!! Details on my blog. Aww go on. It’ll be a nice distraction.
February 3rd, 2008 at 1:34 pm
Thanks my lovelies.
Better today. Taking it out on the housework! Ooh I feel all June Cleaver, except I am not. In the slightest.
Perhaps I should put on an apron?
February 3rd, 2008 at 2:09 pm
Glad you are feeling better.
Send some of those June Cleaver vibes this way? SO got a case of the I-don’t-wanna’s today.
Also happy you DID NOT consume red wine after Bailey’s - now that would have been silly …
xxx
A
February 3rd, 2008 at 2:28 pm
Glad to see you are doing a bit better!
Sending hugs and booze your way…maybe some percosets? I have some….
February 3rd, 2008 at 3:33 pm
perhaps a nice mustard and pressure bandage sandwich?
February 3rd, 2008 at 5:04 pm
Gees, I’m always late to the party lately.
Firstly, hugs for yesterdays corner rocking adventure. Hope the wine dulled the pain.
I am a big fan of corners myself.
Secondly, glad you are feeling better.
Thirdly biggest hugs to you.
February 3rd, 2008 at 5:17 pm
OH sweetie. Sending e hugs!! Thank god for wine. Don’t be too hard on yourself, okay!!!???
February 3rd, 2008 at 6:52 pm
I tried to get on here last night but my PC froze - just wanted to add my HUGS xxx
February 13th, 2008 at 2:25 pm
Theeeelmaaaaaa……..
xox
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